喃喃自語

Thank you my baby.

As being a mom, I protect you.

Thus I found I need to fight for me more, on my own.

The only one can fight for me, struggle for me, is the one who called "myself".

因為沒有一個人會完全了解，一個當媽媽的人想要當自己心目中媽媽該有的樣子到某個程度，想要當心目中老婆該有的樣子，

想要當心目中女兒該有的樣子，想要保持健康愉快生活，更想要把自己心目中夢想的自己成就出來（無論外表/工作/能力/技術）

是種多麼矛盾被擠壓甚至覺得自己在剝削自己的感覺...

I really can tell that  I am really different since I have you.

You make me tough and tender.

That's  another kind of growth phase.